Truth is...

Finally recieved answers from the doctor today as to why I am in this seemingly constant sickness.

Apparently my thyroid is in the DANGER ZONE. So, no more medicines for six weeks and hopefully that will fix the problem. If not, then they will blast my body with radiation! Whoo-hoo, doesn't that sound like fun?

So if anyone actually reads this, hope and pray for me.

I really would like to feel healthy again.

♥

FRIENDS ONLY

So the insanity that has become my life continues. I am actually starting to feel the pressure and the stress. All I keep thinking, " I have so much to do." I need to stop focusing on that, and take it one step at a time. One assignment at a time. It has just been so hard to focus these days. So much has been on my mind. See, I am apparently in love with analyzing things and trying to figure them out. I like things to fit, like little puzzle piece, into my life. So with the events that have unfolded in the past few months. I've just been off. I keep wanting something I can not have, and I need to admit that to myself. I have also been looking too far into the future. I need to look at the here and now. I have to let go of the things I can not control.



Classes are running amuck. It is pure chaos. I find my only escape in my History of Western Civ. class. I love coming to this class. My professor is very much in love with what he teaches. Plus, he is an huge fan of the History Channel..just like me. I must say it is nice to find someone I can discuss history, mythology, and what not with. Since my best friend left for South Africa, things have felt empty. There really has been a huge hole. You never realize how much you count on someone, or how much you really love them til they're not there. No worries, our friendship is true. Though all the things we have been through together, being a two different continents will not phase us. That is the great thing about life. Finding those amazing people you just connect with. There is this instant bond, that you know will last. Aha, off topic..I tend to do that. Back to my professor and classes. The rest of my classes are okay. My American Literature class is probably one of the hardest classes I have ever taken. And I lived through Jarvis ( best teacher at GHS, seriously, I learn more in her class than all my years of HS combined). My Psychology class is extremely interesting. I am finding it fascinating, trying to figure out how and why a human being acts the way he/she does. At the same time though, it tends to argue with my faith. Which gets confusing sometimes, it leaves questions in your mind, and makes you wonder where is the balance between the worlds. I like balance a lot.

Oh tonight...see I am trying to be good and refuse temptation. I know that I should stay home and focus on me. I need to focus on all the things that need to be done, and I need to regain my focus on who I am, and what it is I want. I expect some very good things to come of this weekend..Although maybe I shouldn't expect..I should just hope.



Alright, sorry for the insane rambling dribble...I hope you at least understood parts of it.
Good night all you crazy people. I hope you are enjoying unofficial..With out me! Wrong!



peace & I love being Irish,
Jo